Scrapbook of memories ;

the irony of it all

Mon, 21 Dec 2009 02:23:40 GMT

1 week n 3 days! (:
Till the end of the year and also thats when my contract ends, haha.
One month of just bumming, woo hoo!

Till then, i'll be counting down (:
Aside from that, according to triplesphilippines.blogspot.com SS501 wont be cmg to sg ):
Their last concert will be in thailand, why why why?
Im hoping its not true, cos the official announcement from DSP entertainment is not out yet.

Baby wont be out for xmas ): ):
But i'll get to see him on xmas eve, so thats better then nothing (:

It takes alot of guts to say that you're matured in your thinking and that you've grown up.
Because you'll never know if you really have.
Note to self, dont be so low down like some people can be and also give up when you know you cant anymore.
I need to stop pretending like everything is fine because honestly its not.
I guess you could say its over.

P/S: The office is freaking cold :x

dirty lil secret

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 04:10:10 GMT

Lunch, lunch lunch! In 25 mins :D

Everyday i wonder if i did the right thing by extending my contract, aye :/
Not much things to do recently, causing yours truly to be freaking bored.

Honestly, i dont know what this entry is for. Just for me to babble on and on.

I want to have at least one month break before heading on to whatever it is that i decide to do.

B is in station now, taking a while to reply my sms ):

Anyway, im going for early lunch. Yes!! The big bosses are not in, woo (:

Dont make me say this to you: "Now you know how it feels, whether or not the situation is the same."

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 03:47:45 GMT

"Did you ever walk through a room that's packed with people, and feel so lonely you can hardly take the next step?"
Jodi Picoult (Second Glance)

My answer: Umpteen of times

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 06:33:25 GMT

Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.

- Marion St. Claire, Bride Wars

hello stranger

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 04:05:42 GMT

Yes im at work now, haha.
But no one from my office is going to see this, so who cares (:

Anyway, i extended my contract till december. After december i need to think of what im going to do.
Back to studying? Find another job? Bum till my hearts content?
The last one is so out of the question la.
With my dad's constant nagging, its a guarantee chop that the last one is so not going to happen :/

I really want to thank God for giving me a nice working environment & also nice people whom i've met at work (:
Cos i remembered asking God about this and he answered my prayer! So thank you big daddy!! ((:

I hope he will open his heart and feel that touch from God, yup.

Soooo, am going for lunch soon. Hungry! :p

Will update pictures in the next entry (:
/edit @ 3.15pm

He looks super cute n happy in this picture :D

In this picture he looks cool, haha.

things can happen

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 06:30:11 GMT

I was in shock when i read about it, somehow i didnt want to believe what i saw.
My heart just felt so heavy, and it made me realise that things that you think may never happen does happen.
Though i wasnt close to her, she'll be fondly remembered by her smile.
She was a cheerful person and im sure she brought alot of joy to her friends.

RIP Nicole, you're safe with God now.

Lord, i pray for her family and friends. That you'll strengthen them and keep them safe.
In this time of grieve, that you'll be by their side.
Amen,

music makes you lose control

Fri, 15 May 2009 08:35:08 GMT

My sister showed me this video.
Really awesome.
I had goose pimples while watching it.

He's like freaking 12 years old!
And i wonder what i was doing at that age, haha.
Plus he's dimples are like sooooo cute!!
Not only is he cute but he's voice is very powerful.

Anyway, i have a paper early in the morning tmr :/
But after that tanning session with the babes! (: (:
Please let it be hot and sunny, haha.

Back to the notes, ugh.

Thu, 19 Mar 2009 04:58:48 GMT

The operation was a success and she's able to be discharged today.
A big thank you to my big daddy (:

Being at a hospital for a period of time makes you think of life and death.
And it also makes you think about your health.
Let's just say that now when my mum tells me to take care of my health, i will.
The thought of being in pain and having to visit the hospital very frequently, scares me.

I know, i know.
Why am i talking about such stuff.
But it just suddenly came to mind.

Its friday tomorrow, finally.
Stupid phone, stupid battery.
He said he became darker, haha.
Missed that lil grapehead so much, heh.

Date with wifey later (:
Love it when we can spend time together.
Most importantly, i love her <3
Too mushy?
Then dont bother reading, haha.

It's sad if you cant express your love for your friends.
I pity you, haha.
Dont get me wrong, im just saying in general.

Need to rest for a while.
Hate it when my nose starts leaking.
Shoo flu bug, shoo.

how lucky we are

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 05:52:49 GMT

Quick update, im still bumming at home.
BL lesson starts on the 25th of march.
Morning class, tsk.

Heading to the hospital tomorrow.
Lord, please protect my aunt through the surgery tomorrow.

Bringing the whole bunch of kids to SGH tomorrow.
Okay maybe not a bunch, haha.
Six of us, including me.

One week since he's been in CD.
Couple of dates to remember.
Like lessons, first day of work, his POP date, etc
Looking forward to the third week of may because thats when he passes out.
And also thats when he can take leave and stuff.
Most importantly, he doesnt need to cut his hair so frequently.
I think, haha.
Im sure he'll look forward to that, haha.

Also, catch up session with wifey (:
Its been quite a while.
Really looking forward to that, haha.

Never felt so bored before, man.
And my exercise regime didnt work out.
Let's just say, i haven really started :/
Plus the weather's crazy.
Scorching hot and then freezing cold.
Goodness.

Anyway, i shouldn't complain.
I should enjoy myself for now.

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 04:10:19 GMT

Love can never grow old,
Locks may lose their brown and gold,
Cheeks may fade and hollow grow,
But the hearts that love will know
Never winter's frost and chill,
Summer's warmth is in them still.

P/S: 11 more days ):

someone give me a award for being the best couch potato

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 08:53:08 GMT

Have been bumming at home, going out and being a couch potato.
The couch has been my best friend for the past one week, lol.
Also, eating everything that i can find in the house.
Luckily, i'm doing something productive on tuesday and friday.
Which is, work. Haha.

Maybe i should like heed my dad's advice, exercising.
Which i have not done in ages, haha.
Let me think about it.

Anyway, this post was not necessary.
I'm bored, haha.
Oh, i wont be updating as much.
Let's just say my access to a laptop is not as convenient as before.

Yesterday's dinner was good (:
It doesnt mean that the older you get, you cant play silly but fun games (:

Countdown to supp paper: 1 week & 6 days
Countdown to 10 march: 2 weeks & 2 days ):

Wont be able to see him much ):
But im glad that now we're talking more often (:
And like whatever free time we have, we'll be talking to each other.
Haha.

Just thought about what this year is going to be like, hmmm.
Well, for now it will be my supp paper, completing the stupid BL module and work at the same place as gf (:
On top of that, meeting up with friends, the BFFs ( ahhhh, miss them like crazy) and not forgetting you (:

Shall go find smth to do, haha.

peektures.

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 15:48:14 GMT

FIRST DAY OF CNY

silly brother with his silly smile.

daddy, mummy and the kids (:

my cute mama, heh

mummy's side of the family

SECOND DAY OF CNY

clarissa, cute lil cousin

kelly, my other lil cousin.
she was jumping on the bed, lol

the girls from daddy's side
the picture's a bit blur, haha

Well, thats about all. Didnt take much on the second day. And also, no family picture with daddy's side. Anyway, i better head to bed now. Goodnight!

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 14:19:01 GMT

Tomorrow's friday, so TGIF.
On top of that, its my last paper.
Woo hoo! :D

But i still have my BL to remodule.
Tskk.
Anyway, i shall enjoy myself first (:

I got barred for two papers and the whole of last week was really stressful.
But i really want to thank god (:
Cos i managed to take it, so really praise god!

Will post CNY pictures in the next entry, haha.
I think im like the latest.
Its like almost two weeks already, haha.

Feb is the time where many people go overseas to study.
Lek and eudee are there now.
And i miss lek already ):
But i wish the both of them the best! (:

3 weeks and a few days before bumbum goes to the place.
Time passes really quickly.
I just hope that this wont be a barrier between the both of us.
Bumbum, must believe me ok? (:

That aside, next week will be time for me to enjoy (:
Pictures in the next entry! haha.

:/

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 15:20:00 GMT

My mind's in a mess.
I don't know what i should do.
All the what if's, but it does not matter anymore.

It's all my fault.

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 05:08:55 GMT

Stiff Dylans - Ultraviolet

what we call, boy crazy

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 04:48:58 GMT

A must watch, interesting title but definitely a interesting movie. Romance, comedy all in one show.
And not forgetting, cute boys :D
Especially aaron johnson.
Look at the pictures and you'll see, haha
.

See what i mean?!

What more can i say, lol

Not only that, he's in a band too! Its called Stiff dylans, they're from the UK.
Two songs were featured in the movie.
Ultraviolet and ever fallen in love
The song ultraviolet is on repeat mode now, haha.

to keep going, we make the best of things

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 03:16:17 GMT

Just when you least expect it, that day comes.
The day that answers will be given.
Where an outcome will be known.

All im hoping for now is that everything will be fine.
That the consequence will be as minimal as possible.

Well, aside from this its the second day of the new year.
School for me has been going on, no holidays.
Just the public holiday, haha.

This year will be full of changes, in all areas of my life.
My resolution, to stay grounded and not sway so easily.

Have been sick this whole week, which is horrible.
And have to get ready for class, like now.
Haha.

There's one happy thing today, haha.
Happy 8th month baby! (:
But i highly doubt he'll see this, haha.

L-O-V-E

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 10:08:43 GMT

Bintan with the BFFs were THE BEST! (: What more could i ask for? My first holliday with my friends, was awesome! Endless photos, making new friends (okay, maybe just elaine. haha.) Eugene and julian being all silly, Tham, elaine and myself getting high on really old school songs :D, Meals cooked by us, yes us (: Not forgetting, body booggiee board :D Sounds funny, but let me tell you. Its super duper ultra fun! (:

I LOVE THE BFFS TO THE MAX, TO THE STARS AND BEYOND! <3

unnecessary post, haha

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 15:01:45 GMT

I KILLED A WASP!
Me, yes me.
Haha, i know its kinda stupid and random.
But its the first time i killed a wasp.
Wasps are scary ok, and gross :/

Anyway, its only the first week of school but im feeling the pressure.
Dang, thats bad.

Kinda lazy to do a proper post, haha.
Will do that, some other time.

love is more than just a game for two

Thu, 23 Oct 2008 05:42:32 GMT

I love love love this song :D
Anyway, my com has been fixed.
Hurray, but it still shuts down occassionally :/

Exams, exams, exams.
Hate it, ugh.
I just want to get it over and done with.

Really glad i had a good talk with my wifey (:
It really amazes me that even though we're busy with our own stuff.
Our conversations still stay the same (:
This my friends is called, true friendship.
I LOVE YOU WIFEY! :D

Saturday's coming, yay!
Cos finally i get to have dinner with my beloved bffs (:
Missed dinners with them man.

Anyway, thats about all.
I think, haha.
Have to go get ready, meeting a certain someone.
Hur hur :D

smallboy <3

you make it real

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 05:53:19 GMT

So currently my com is down and that kinda explains why i haven been updating, in like forever.
And im using his laptop, just for a while (:
Because i have two assignments to do, individual assignments :/

So this will be a quick update, too lazy to type it in reallyyy long sentences.
1) School has been crazy, manage to pass my class test.
2) So many things happening at home, sigh
3) Had a catch up session with tham and elaine (:
4) Oh, small boy was there too. Heh :]
5) FIVE MOREEE DAYS, HAHAHA :D

My mum and i have are having a cold war, but i cant be bothered.
Some stuff happned, so ya.
Well she ignored me first, so im fine with it.
Honestly its so childish la, so whatever.

Im having two weeks of break now (:
Yay, cos i dont have to go for classes.
But i have assignments to do, ugh.

I feel different, like im so numb to certain stuff.
And i dont know if thats bad.
But i guess whatever comes, comes.

Anyway, back to my assignment.
Haha, shall update soon?

Oh, i just want to say : I LOVE YOU MY DEAREST GF :D
To my dearest, tham (:

just a little bit longer

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 08:58:22 GMT

Its the third week of school and im losing my motivation to study.
This is bad :/
So i have to hand up a report on wed, the meaning of 'back-up plan' and its uses.
What is it you may ask, some nonsense from BIS (business info systems)
This subject totally bores me.

Was suppose to take a nap, but i decided to update first.
Haha (:

Didnt attend church on sat, my relatives were over at my house.
I had somewhat a 'live' telecast from my house, haha.
And of course, meeting up with clara (:
Its been pretty long.
But i missed the Bffs ):
Esp tham, feels like i haven seen her in a really long time.
Never mind, THIS SAT (: (:

I still owe bum her bdae present & someone else's bdae is coming up too.
I wonder who that is, heh heh.
Hmmmm, what shall i get her? (:

My emotions are so unpredictable at times.
It can swing from one end to another.
Sigh.

Heres two pictures that show how i have been feeling.

The first one, trapped.
Its as if i cant do anything without getting 'scolded'.
And who else, but they are the ones who are watching me.
I dont like people watching my every move, its just so uncomfortable.
But im really thankful for tham, for being there for me (:
And really giving me the encouragement i needed.
LOVESS BABE :D

The other one, like a incomplete jigsaw puzzle.
I feel that my life is not one full story, its bits and pieces all over the place.
Like there is no full stop to a sentence, it just goes on and on.
Theres no definite point in my life now.
I guess its really dealing with me, myself and i.
Why cant i just hang on but instead give up so easily.

As much as i want all this to go away asap, i know its impossible.
Because everything takes time.

Well, i really long to have fun again.
Meaning, just having the joy in my life again.
Not having to put on a smile when i face anyone.
Just like this little boy.

letting it all out

making decisions are tough

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 03:41:44 GMT

First week of school, so far so good.
The class is really big, like seriously BIG.
And the ratio of local students to foreign students is, 10:1
Haha, thats just my assumption.

But i think that im able to study hard cos with them around, i can feel the pressure.
Haha (:

BIG NEWS: I SAW NAT HO ON MONDAY! :D

His smile, the way he said hello, woo hoo! (:
Haha, as what tham said we were really starstruck.
Aside from that, i had a good time with tham (:
Starbucks, shopping and my gf :p
What a gd life, haha.

Oh yes, dark mocha frapp.
Really good, lol.

I realise that everytime im going to take a step higher, the devil does smth in my life.
To pull me down, to make me start from square one again.
I cannot let this happen time and time again.
Thats where the big word, perseverance comes in.

I found this quote on the net.
When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

So whenever i fall, i have to pick myself up again.
No matter how painful it will be.

Soooo, its saturday again!
Yay, Bffs :D
I so so so so miss them!

Well, im officially a student again.
Haha, gotta get back to my notes :/

My source of strength, my source of hope
Is christ alone

will it all get better once again?

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 04:21:00 GMT

Note to self: One more week to school

I kept thinking that i still had forever to bum around but sadly, no ):
In a way, im glad that i'll be kept busy but on the other hand when sch starts i'll start complaining.
Why are human beings so funny, actually its just me. Haha.

Dissapointment sets in again, and my parents just love to make it worst.
Its like the end of the race already, but i just had to 'fall' down.
I mean like yes, theres nothing i can do. But work harder the next round.
But the fact is, i have to go throught it again. That sucks.

On top of that, im beginning to not understand my parents at all.
Like i always question myself, how to give them the respect when they dont give me the respect?
I mean its like a give and take right?

But i know in this times, that i can look to god and the friends he has put in my life.
Esp the BFFs (:
They are all i need to bring me back up again (:

Speaking of friends, i always wonder if its true that if you dont meet up or contact the person for really long. The friendship will be ruin, in a sense.
Like in a friendship, is it mainly about the meet-ups and contacting of the person.

Well, its happening now. And not only one person, but two.
Shes like so cold towards me, like her replies and stuff. Might as well dont reply, cos like i find no point in her replying with her tone like that.
I really hope that we can sit down and talk one day.

For the other person, we do contact each other. Like occassionally, but the feeling is so wierd.
Its so hard to explain what the feeling is actually.
Cos shes really special to me, and i dont wish to see our friendship fade.
I'll be seeing her soon, so i hope that something will change.

I guess i have to start things first, and im alright with that.
Cos they're important to me. Uh huh.

Anyway, im going to meet eliza later on (:
Catch up session, haha.
So i may update again, i dont know when :p

TOODLESS :D

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

safe in a crazy world

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 04:12:00 GMT

As they say, slowly but surely. And i guess its quite true, i thought i was not able to but i surprised myself by being able to take tiny steps, The improvement may not be very visible just yet, but im sure one day i'll become a changed person for the better (:

Anyway, SP course was awesome :D Learning new things, street evangelism for the first time and even meeting new people (: All in all, it was a gd experience.

On top of that, dance pracs for the july event! Exciteddd (; This dance routine will be quite different from the other dance routines, haha.

Had a farewell for eliza and other one for ryan, soon i think. Sigh, i dont like it when people leave ): And lyanne's flying off soon ); Pls, no more of this alright? Haha.

Life catalyst and Free radicals :D :D

I really want to thank god for placing the BFFs in my life (: They're the best people ever! Whenever or wherever they're just there (:

LOVE THEM TO BITS :D

The BFFs ; Tham, Elaine, Eug and Julian (: (:

All so loveable and fun to be with, haha.

Oh, i manage to get a job at kumon. Woopedoo, lol. Even though its just two days per week, im happy. At least i wont be rotting at home, haha.

Andd, i just finish reading the book PS i love you, Hur hur. Really slow, i know. Its a really good book, really. And im really impressed by the author, shes like 22 only?! Maybe its not shocking to your, but i dont know why im so shocked. Haha.

25 July, La passion2 :D SAC's dance concert! Cant wait to go see, haha, Bum, i can like finally see you :D

So, nxt week will be more dance practices, HMPG and work (:

I miss the BFFs ): Saturday, yes sat, Haha (: